My daughter has arrived
June 2, 2009 at 4:37 p.m. She weighed 7lb 3oz and was 19.25 inches long. She looks just like her father and I think she is gorgeous. The labor and delivery was 60 hours longs from start to finish and it is an ugly story which I will try to tell in a cohesive manner at some point.
I will be putting up some posts that may be very disturbing to all of you. These posts reflect the lows of post pregnancy many women have b/c of hormones and various other things. Please know that as you are reading them that these posts are basically written when I’m feeling at my lowest. It seems I write most when I’m having trouble and not during the good times. These posts are my darkest thoughts and are not my true thoughts and only really show up when I’m having a hormonal crying jag. I am told these are normal crying jags but I really want to get the sad and depressing thoughts out of my head and onto virtual paper — it seems to help me get through the moment faster. I am depressed but please don’t worry — I am talking to someone (actually my husband and I are talking to someone). I just know that writing stuff down is part of the process I need to follow to get past the hard parts.
Please do not feel you need to try to cheer me up — I am posting the posts b/c I really feel it will help me to get the stuff out of my system. I also don’t know if I will be able to clarify any of the posts if they are confusing to read which they probably will be. I think that is just a part of the throwing up on the paper/computer that I will be doing. There is no clarification — the feelings are just what they are when I have them.
